To a very special friend

Melissa,

I want you to know that nothing that has happened in the past year has changed my opinion of you. You are still the most wonderful person that I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. You are a beautiful, strong, kind-hearted person. If I had to live your life I probably would have died.
I don’t’ know where I’d be without you. You’ve made my life so much better. I don’t care that you don’t think you deserve any credit, because I know better. I know the effect you have on me. I am happier around you than I am with anybody else. I don’t feel any where near uncomfortable around you. You’ve the first person who has made me feel wanted, and loved, and special. My life is infinitely better because you play a major role in it. I know that as long as I have you things will be alright.
I want you to know that I’ll always be there for you. I’ll always be your friend, and I’ll never ever quit caring about you. If you ever need to talk I’m there for you. If it’s important I’d drop whatever it is that I’m doing for you. The thing that I care about most in this world is your happiness. I only wish that I could shield you from pain and unpleasantness. It breaks my heart to see any ounce of hurt in the pair of magical eyes that you have. I just wish that you didn’t have to be unhappy and hurt. I’d honestly do anything (or anybody) for you.
If you ever need an ear to hear you, a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to lean on, I’d do my very best and offer you the unconditional love of a pure friend at the very least. You have to understand that there is nothing you can do that will make me think any less of you, or quit caring about you. You will always be in a special place in my heart.
Nothing at all can kick you out of it either. I don’t envision a day that will pass where I don’t think about you and smile at all the good times we’ve had. Whether it’s “Must be the Money,” or dropping you and your tampons on the street, or the card games, or Frisbee, or eating with you, or talking about your boobs, or comparing male and female body parts to cities, or coloring our ideas of STD’s, or singing, or being at the pool (you looked really hot in that bikini by the way), or running around in the rain with one umbrella and still getting soaked, or giving you a compliment and you not talking it well, or you thanking me and me not taking that well. Those are the memories that I’ll remember most.
I’m starting to cry as I write this now. Not because of how much I’ll miss you but I couldn’t help but think that the scariest thing that could possibly ever happen to me is to get Alzheimer’s and not be able to remember you. I don’t ever want to forget you. You are the world to me, and losing my memory of you would be like losing a large chunk of who I am as a person which would be incredibly hard especially since that chunk is the most joyful part of me. I just don’t ever want to forget about you.
Words cannot explain how much I’ll miss you. I just love that calm feeling I get when I look into your magical eyes, or that feeling I get when you smile at me. It just lights me up on the inside. I’ll miss the way you can be stunningly beautiful without trying and absolutely breathtaking when you do. I’ll miss your love spell scent, and the sense of strength that I get from you. I’ll miss hearing you sing. Oh, Lord will I miss that wonderful voice of yours.
I don’t know what I’m going to do without you next year; I’m just so very afraid about being parted from you will do to me. I just need you so freaking much that I don’t know how or if I can survive without you.
In closing I want you to know that you’re like the sister that I never had and I’ll always support you in what you do. Also I really do love you with a good size chunk of my heart and I’m glad that you’re my best friend ever.

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